[dshobbies]

Maria,

I'm so glad you're feeling better. It's a mixed blessing. Both you fear, which is well founded, and your depression are completely understandable. I'd be surprised if you weren't experiencing these emotions. It's funny how when things get close, we seem to feel better and begin second guessing our decisions. All of this is normal. I would even expect all of this to worsen as we get closer to March.

No one can tell you which direction to take. You are well informed, have fought a hard fight, and the decision to move forward is yours to make. I've heard of miracles and the opposite and everything inbetween, so nervousness plays a huge role is your decision. Just know that everything you're feeling has been felt by everyone who went before you. Even now, writing this, I remember my fear and apprehension, but I had no doubts that I had to do this. It was this that saw me through, of course with the help of Mark.

Just breathe slowly and take advantage of your feeling good. Please take care,

Dale