[melodyl]

Thanks Terry, Kate and Maria! Today is a little/lot better! I went to work and other than a little headache, fatigue and loss of appetite, the day seemed like a fairly normal work day. I'm hoping the worst is behind me I DID make an appt.a with a UWMC pain management dr. who specializes in narcotic tapering. I can't get in until May 18....but that is ok...it will give my body that much more time to adjust to no more fentanyl. The closest major pain management center to where I live is over 80 miles away which means a day off of work, but I'm hoping the consultation will be worth it. I'm not sure why, but I feel resistant to going from fentanyl and oxycodone to suboxone. Worried, I guess about trading one problem for another. Maybe I'm naive to think I can do this without using suboxone or methadone or inpatient help....but I've made it this far and if I can do the rest without getting dependent on another medication, I think I'll be happier in the long run. I really dislike having to go to the dr. to get my scripts every month. I'd like to do some more traveling.....and don't like the idea of planning vacations around picking up pills every month. I know there are lots of people here who take pain medication daily....and that has been the story of my life for the last 5 years....but I'm ready for a change. Just not sure my body is going to agree with me on this decision. I'll try to keep everyone updated on my taper (or decision to try an alternative is that is what the specialist and I agree on). I appreciate all of you! By for now! Melody