[Maria]

Thinking of offing myself...
edit to add that's not what I feel now but what I had felt when the pain was at this level all the time due to failed back surgery in '92

0 is I want to run around and do and undo until I'm ready to drop into the sack and sleep the sleep of the dead..
1 is who cares, I can still run around and do and undo..
2 is still running around but very minor annoyances
3 is starting to notice this sh*t is bugging me more than I like
4 is dang stop this nonsense
5 is wtf
6 is where are the med
7 is oh no I didn't
8 is wahhh
9 is wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
10 is FFFFFFFFF........K!!!!!!!!
and the rest~ (hope I've not offended anyone tho that's my truth)