[dshobbies]

You almost sound like a nervous bride. The mechanism is exactly the same. Doubt over making the right decision, expecially as the day moves closer, is haunting you.

Your decision didn't come lightely. You've been in pain for too long and based your needs and desires on that. Now, you indicision has returned because the last few days haven't been that bad.

Do you think this respite is likely to continue for the rest of your life or is this the calm before the storm? You're scared about having this surgery and until Wednesday, I suppose this doubt is here to stay.

You based your decision on many factors, worked out all the details and now have nothing to do but think about it. Your panic is now front and center saying 'hello, I'm here to bother you today', and it is.

Life comes with no certainties and all we can do is the best we can do. Breathe, go to your happy place do what you think is the best you can.

We're all here and we all understand. We're all supporting you as these days tick by. We're also pretty sure you're making the right decision.

Dale