[Terry Allen Blackburn]

Originally Posted by Eastex

Kathy,
Have you been to Texas spine and Joint in Tyler yet? I am having better luck there so far. I understand what you are going through right now, and it pisses you off when there is hope and then it is ripped away. My wife is currently given up on me as we speak. I just hopes she remembers that I am not the same person during this ordeal because of the pain, drugs, and emotional roller coaster. You are in my prayers, and I hope you find help. soon.

It's hard for spouse's and loved ones to understand as they may not have been there themselves. There is also such a sense of impotence and powerlessness when you cannot help a person that you love. Suffering is something that gets in the way of a good relationship anyway. How can you be there for someone else when your entire life is consumed by mind numbing pain. There is nothing that can describe the feeling of just wanting to take your own life just to have some escape from how much agony you are in. I have definitely been there where I prayed to die as life had no hope, no joy, no future.

I hope you guys can work your way to the other side. Giving up is such a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Hang in there and we will be like your extended family for support for what you are going through.

Terry Newton