[fireyangel76]

I had such high hopes for my day today. I had totally intended to go out shopping on my own. Try to soak in some sunshine and just be...react only to what actually was, not what I fear it will be. It is really so simple to put into words but not so simple to put into action. I will try again tomorrow.
I feel like I have been in pain forever, but in relation to some of those here I am still in my infancy. I have also been so much worse and still done so much more than I do now. Why is that? My pain is so much less than it has been many times before. Fear of more pain is what is sending me to the darkness not the pain itself right now.
I wonder why no one ever pointed this out to me before or was I just too busy being scared to hear them. I am very glad to have this forum because the last thing I ever have to think about is if people here will understand.