[Blairsara]

Hey guys
Sorry for being mia. It will be four months next week. Maria I had started aqua therapy and was doing really well. Actually, 4 weeks ago I felt the best I had felt in over 3 years. I kept saying it the few weeks before that but it wasnt until that week where I really believed it. I had even decreased my meds! then... everything went to crap.

I started classes and that feeling quickly faded. I majorly increased my medication. I was just going to physical therapy and school. I stopped going in the pool. I stopped walking. I felt miserable. It was a repeat of last year. I was miserable from the pain and so pissed off because I had a glimpse into how I could feel. I didnt have to feel like that - there's no need to be miserable!

So I decided to take the semester off. It's only been about 3 days from my decision and I already feel better. Just knowing that I will only focus on getting better helped so much! I'm going to try and get back in the pool by the end of this week and start out slow.

Three weeks ago I went to my dr and had a CT scan to see how I was fusing. It looks like it started.. yay. I'm still in the same back brace and it has caused soooo much extra pain. Hopefully I can get rid of it soon.

I hope everyone is doing well. And thanks so much for asking about me!

Also, things with my brother are fine for right now. I'm basically acting like I dont have one except for when I have to see him at family events. I'm civil and because of that he thinks everything is fine. After I recover I'll deal with it. But my health comes first.