[Maria]

Yes, and I'm next in line for the Crystal Ball~
I have to yell STOP at myself when I start what if-ing. I drove myself completely nutz with this after the 2nd surgery but the first one I really felt was warrented as my back was "out" every other month, missing 4 weeks of work at a time lying in bed to recover. After the first surgery I was able to have a normal life and I do believe it left L4 weakened though I had great relief from my symptoms for the first time in nearly 7 years after the first surgery so I feel that surgery was a good decision. Maybe I waited too long to have that surgery but honestly I never even thought of it that way~