[Maria]

That you've spoken to Mark and are checking things out. Sometimes even with checking things out we make same decision as if we hadn't tho at least what I learned from own experience is that I was way more at ease with myself and my efforts re whatever decision at least when I felt I made the effort to check things out more thoroughly.

I didn't do that with 2nd spine surgery and it was a really horrible failure and I was just not in any way prepared for that. Took me years to stop blaming myself for the decision I made re surgery as only I really lived with the repercussions of the outcome ( and probably my poor parents that felt my emotional pain near as deepas I did or deeper).

Continued support and best wishes for all thru your process/endeavor/journey. Mark is a wonderful person to connect with thru a spinal journey and esp if you're alone.
Maria