Hi Mark,
I'm truly sorry to hear you are losing hope. You've always been an inspiration to me. You have always helped and encouraged the rest of us. I hope you regain hope and join the rest of us. Even just surviving is better than despair. Keep in mind we need you. The old MGH SD is dead. You and ispine are the only refuge left for some of us.
Mostly I'm surviving. Sometimes I feel like I can't keep going but I push myself to keep active which means going to work and exercising. Part of the reasoning is that I know I'll feel bad no matter what I do, so I may as well go to work and feel bad there. Work is a distraction that helps take my mind off of the pain and discomfort. I keep hoping my body will step up and heal naturally. It doesn't seem to be happening.
Earlier in this saga I could not imagine I would still be alive today. Surely a human could not endure this indefinitely. I thought that after several years I would be cured or I would be dead from surgeries, or suicide or who knows what.
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Jim
2003 L5S1 Charite
1981 L5S1 Discectomy
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