[Maria]

Jarrod,
That's what my life was like after my failed spine surgery in '92 however it didn't remain that way fortunately. I thought I'd never be out of pain and was pleasantly surprised when life changed for the better. I know that you can't even imagine that now however it can happen. I'm sorry you're in so much pain after going thru all that you have and I hope very much that things get better for you soon altho these things can take their own not so sweet time. I'm not saying this to discourage you as you're already discouraged however just to be realistic. Then again.. who knows things might all of a sudden get to that point they turn around for you. Hang in the Jarrod and don't worry about venting your feelings as many have come and gone before you doing so. This spine stuff sucks.