re pain/despair
Jarrod,
I'm sure I told you how I felt after my 2nd spine surgery with an outcome that was so unexpected (terrible) and pain I could never have even imagined could happen and for every single stupid day ... it just made me think really bad things like how to end the pain.
Truly the thought that kept me going was knowing that every new day was a day that could possibly bring relief. No one expected that pain, no one could really predict how long it would last if they couldn't even accurately explain what it was or where it was coming from exactly.
So try to keep in mind that just because you feel the way you do now with the pain you have now that does not mean you'll always feel this way.
Hang in there Jarrod.. it's a tough tough place to be and I know that well from my own experience post surgery that did fail (not saying yours has as it's still early for you) however with time there was a big improvement and I hope that you will experience the same thing.
Keep focused on your goal to be better. Every new day is a chance for that...
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