[TiredofPain]

Well, finally down to the wire. Surgery is Tues morning. Have to be at the hospital tomorrow evening to screen and tag my blood. Then early Tues morning is the big day. To say that I'm emotionally drained would be an understatement. But, I'm sure you all have been there. Scared *&^%less is the strongess feeling right now. Crazy thoughts like, just live on pain meds.... Mmmmmm crap that won't work. HA HA. Went to my primary doc, the new one that I lucked into getting. Needed chest xray as last item, because of my bouts with pneaumonia. We chatted for some time and she asked if I wanted some anti-anxiety meds. I declined because I'm hoping to one day live med free. And I'm on enough other stuff, I'm afraid of bad side effects. Kinda wish I had taken her up on the offer. Oh well, glad I found this site when I did. I know that there are others like me. Thanks for letting me vent. See you on the other side.

J