Thanks guys, even being able to vent here helps a little. After seeing the pain that this ordeal is causing my family, when they ask me how I am doing I usually lie. As much as it hurts me to not to be able to express my pain to them, it hurts me even more to see the pain that my pain is causing them when I do tell them. The look on their faces knowing they can do nothing to help me makes me feel even worse.
Who knows, maybe tomorrrow's appt with the pain management doc will bring me enough relief to be able to go on.
Also I don't want it to sound like I am making decisions without thinking things through. I will not do anything rash without being absolutely sure that there is no other option.
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Chiari 1 malformation - successful surgery 1-22-09
C5-6 herniation (extrusion) with moderate central canal stenosis and bilateral foraminal stenosis.
Prodisc-C @ C5-6 surgery on 5/28/09
VATS thoracic fusion @ T3-4 and T6-7 on 9/11/09
Fusion w/cage @ C7-T1 on 11/12/09
Last edited by jchebert1979; 06-07-2009 at 08:54 PM.
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