[dshobbies]

J,

I hesitate posting because your pain speaks louder than any words. If you are willing to risk your health, knowing the outcome can be dire, there is little left with which to caution you.

However (come one, you knew that was coming) not informing any doctor of a recent surgery or your complete medical history may skew the results and negate any findings. Muscles are still healing and pulling and swelling has not yet gone down.

Another however is that pain is a very powerful motivator. It also diminishes or takes away our power of thinking. Your pain has taken over your every thought. This I can understand but for which I also have no advise. I've read your posts and know you're hurting and at the end of even trying to cope. There really isn't much more I can say other then I'm with you and holding your hand.

You are very much in my thoughts. No one should have to suffer this way.

Dale